Irritation, Frustration and Annoyance

by Carmen Pang

What is in your mind?
Behind the cool facade of yours
The carefully masked emotions
Behind your calm eyes

Did you not understand the words I said
Or were you just trying to hide
From the cruel truth and honest reply
That I refuse to lie

Was that all that is seems to you
I hear of another who speaks of you
One who knows you well enough
One who you know you gave up too

You described me as sensitive
You described me as intelligent
You described me as realistic
Rational and understanding too

But you left the part you though me naive
For it seemed that I am naive to you
For me not seeing through
Not putting one and one together to make two

Where I had noticed long ago
You pushing the forbidden boundaries
That I wish you not to push
Dropping hints to make a prove

Were you blind or were you stubborn
Treating my warnings as if it was nothing
I wish to keep the distance there
but your unrelenting trying is tiring me too

It has finally come to this it seems
That the fool has come to step in his own trap
Had I not give enough hints?
That you did not realize soon

Even friends could tell the ending between us
And I believe you could too
Was it so hard to accept reality?
Was it so hard to accept the truth?

This things you impose on me
It is getting troublesome and old
Don't you see the irritation?
The frustration and the annoyance too?

You ended up in misery
Looking at me for sympathy
Should you have know what I wanted to say
You would have ended up eight feet below

Drowning in alcohol every day
Making yourself a waste of space?
It does not make me sympathetic
Yet it makes me shake my head

Meeting accidents after accidents
Just because your treasure slipped away
May I ask what were you thinking?
Putting your life at stake as if it were a game

No sympathy for one
who does not value his life
No sympathy at all for one
who does not move on in life

Leave and disappear from my sight
For I do not wish to see you
Who threatens me with you own life
And keeps pushing me to see things you do

Go and begone
until you understand
until you see light again

Words of Rejection - by Carmen Pang

How should I tell you?

That I know you are not that special someone

In my life to run

There's no sparks

No flames

And no passion

There's no compulsions

No jealousy

And no obsession

How should I tell you? 

That I know you are not that someone for me

In this lifetime of mine

There's no connections

No yearnings 

And no needs

There's no romance

no love

no forever

Only an apology from me 

And a heartache for you

A Confession’s Reply – by Carmen Pang

A Confession’s Reply – by Carmen Pang

I am touched, for the presents you gave

With the card you wrote and to know that I am loved

I am aghast, for it has come to this

Pray tell, was that a confession you just made to me?

Should I just be blunt?

And speak of what I think?

Or should I just keep silent with my reasoning?

Only with a word or two to give out a hint?

No words of comfort

No words of such from me

Only words of sadness

And words of apology

You, good friend of mine

Who I cherish and pray hard for

Who I know will treat me well

And who know I will beloved for

In this heart of mine lives another soul

Who I know can fill my heart with love

Who I know will take me as I am

Forever and ever more

And me to him

In the long years to run

No words of comfort

No words of love from me

Just only words of grief

And words of apology

I’m sorry